I am a 33 year old lady , married since 11 yrs. Trying to conceive a baby but no luck.
Tried many medical treatments including ivf and got 2 ectopics. Having pain , fear , anxiety but at the same time feels like I can try again and for sure that I will have my child in my hands one day. But every cycle , after the embryo transfer , I started feeling loosing my child.
I generally talk to my inner soul or God and discuss my problems with them. Prior to my marriage they listen to me and my problems end up with best solution it could have for me. Even now after marriage also things do work for me if I talk or write my problems assuming that I am talking to God. But only this problem of not having a child is not getting answered from past 11 years.
I understand it's related to my past karmic account but by nature people call me sadhu sant. But how can I be Sadhu if I had such bad karmic account.
After seeing your YouTube videos of Awakening with brahmakumaris , I found some hope that your thoughts create your destiny. I keep imagining my child in my womb . Now I am trying one more cycle with the hope that this will be my cycle but again after embryo transfer I am feeling very low.
Please do help sister my soul is in deep pain. I believe that God has given me a female costume because he wants me to give birth but when and how I don't know.